Today has been hard so far. I am sad that it
is my impression that Ahmed has taken a huge step back, and going to rehearsal,
a man started cursing like mad at me and two other men, calling us “f**cking
fags” and spitting venom at us. One of the men spoke to the driver who called
her security contact, and I got off the bus. I did not feel safe.
Coming on the heels of a man, unprovoked,
pushing me over into the street, I start to question living where I do, but my
condo is perfect—absolutely perfect for me. I have redone every single room in
its entirety, even the closets and counters.
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David is coming tomorrow for a fitting of
all the men’s costumes. That is going to be a bit weird, having another
stranger coming into my place.
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I found rehearsing hard. The lines are
there but I need lots of practice and we are not rehearsing again until
Wednesday. I will have to go over all my lines every day if I am to feel pride in this show.
I made a 30-second promotional video with
Kim that I think is pretty good.
I keep having bouts of loss of confidence.
Today, it has occurred to ask Dwight: “Why do you think I put myself through
this?”
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I went to the fish store to get some tuna and they had live prawns dying in a tray. I was grief-stricken. I always have trouble with seeing how we treat animals, but I suspect it is more intense because of being in the full throws of the pain of rejection from Ahmed.
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I I am very, very VERY excited because Steve,
my ex, is coming up for the whole weekend opening.
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