Bruce called. When I saw his name on my
phone screen, I knew we would be talking about my anger—not with him, but
evident in my language—that he noticed at our bar date this past Saturday
night.
I was not sure I welcomed a talk about my
behavior. I thought: Will I be defensive? What about his behavior? Will we talk about that? And what about the
entitlement I felt to my anger issues? I earned my anger.
Friends wisely ask: Why not concentrate on
my successes? I hear that question another way: Why not become someone else? I
think losing my anger is about as likely as me turning straight. I’d like to
lose it, but I may be able to keep it in check more for the sake of those
around me.
Meanwhile, on the superficial plane…. Sunday’s
walk was like no other. I did not enjoy it.
It was a glorious day and I was with a good
friend, Tim, who set a brisk pace as we walked around Burnaby Lake, but I was
not into it. I have never felt that
way about a walk—ever. And, in spite of proving just how hip I am by going to
bed at 8:15 on Saturday night and sleeping for the longest time in a decade, I
was pooped by the end of the walk.
Worse: When we went for lunch after our
walk, both my hands were numb because of a slightly pinched nerve in my neck
where I had surgery many years ago. And so I went to bed at eight—that’s two
nights in a row of the longest sleeps that I can ever remember.
Amidst the browns of Fall, this lovely green path of whisky grasses looked like a setting from a lovely short story. |
We don't have a lot of Birch on the West Coast. There can be beautiful pale hues of colour in the bark, and its whiteness can look so glorious against the blue sky. |
With the sun low in the sky as we approach the winter solstice, and with the sun low in the sky in late afternoon the already stunning colours of Fall take on an even more dramatic look. |
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