Feeling Myself Again

Why is a cult the lead item in the news? Why is a cult that shields pedophiles from prosecution in the news? F*ck the cults. F*ck the popes.

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Thursday was a very lazy day. I got to some watering, but I only watered the front ones. I was still in limbo land, feeling tired and uninspired, but it felt good to water all my babies. I’m going to get a ton of Raspberries and Blueberries. I can’t believe it. I can hardly wait to eat ‘em all.

I felt reasonably well in the afternoon, but I chose to leave the watering of the backyard beds until Friday. Instead, I chilled and napped through the afternoon until it was time to take Her Highness for our afternoon walk. As with Wednesday, I went to bed very early. Bed is my new favourite place to be. 

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Friday began with a walk with our friends and their dogs. I didn’t do badly, at all. I just plodded along at the back of the pack, and as soon as I got home … back to bed to sleep until noon. I fed the brood and then got busy watering all the beds in the backyard. It felt very good to feed all my little leafy pals. And having watered both front and back, it leaves me free to install the bird nets over my blueberries today.

I was relieved to find that after watering, which is nothing more than standing in place, then moving a meter or two, and standing in place some more, that I did not bolt for bed. I was content to carry on with chores and then with walking Her Highness in the late afternoon. And when I got back, I did dishes, tidied up and vacuumed. So, a decent day of activity and a day without returning to bed after the morning walk.

I was excited about the evening because at 9:00. pm, PBS broadcast the London production of Next to Normal. I saw the LA production and loved it. It’s about a wife and mother having a nervous breakdown and you see how it affects the family. Her breakdown evolves. She carries on as it sets in. It doesn’t match my experience at all. From the moment mine started I became completely dysfunctional, and I stayed in that state for months.

For Beth: Last night, as I awaited Next to Normal, I watched a movie on Kanopy called The Quiet Girl. It’s an Irish movie that I’ve seen before. I just love it because it’s about a neglected child who finds love when her parents ship her off to live with a cousin. It hurts to watch, but I know it has a happy ending so I can take it. How I wish I had been saved, as wee Cait is in this wonderful heartfelt film.

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Today is cloudy. There was some angel piss this morning, but it doesn’t feel like it’ll rain. It’s brightened some already, so we may enjoy a bright afternoon. I may muster my humours and start working on the bird nets to cover the Blueberries. I'm feeling myself again after two days of feeling absent. 

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