Rain Maybe?

Rain is predicted for today through to Saturday. I hope the forecast is correct; I have books to read. But it hasn’t started yet.

Yesterday began wonderfully, because I was so happy that Dr. Dorscheid and Sam are providing such good care. Just being remembered and hearing that the application is underway, filled me with hope and happiness. I was positively excited to be back on prednisone because it truly is miraculous, what it does for my breathing. 

We went walking with our friends and their dogs in the early morning, and then I went into the village to see how things would go with the pharmacy. Then I came home to write to Sam that I got the prednisone and the new puffers. So, the application process can begin today. And now I wait, but I am optimistic.

I was rather dreading going to the pharmacy this morning. I feared what Sam expected from them wouldn’t happen, but all went well. They found the requisitions and I went back in the afternoon to fetch all the meds. I’m glad I’m going back on prednisone. I have dear friends coming to spend Saturday night here. We’re going to Woodfire for dinner, and they’re leaving on Sunday.

My guests are the daughter and the son-in-law of my friends of fifty-two years, Chris and Frani, who discredited my diagnoses, ridiculed and belittled me cruelly, and I’ve never seen them since. Jessica, their daughter, makes my heart beat fast. I’ve known her, her entire life. I feel deeply attached to her. Now, there are ghosts with us when we are together.

I get very weird and somewhat frightening sensations when I try to take in a deep breath. It hurts. I did not see this coming. My medications have allowed me to live life as though I didn’t have asthma. I’ve been on asthma meds for 15 years. Since going on them I haven’t had a single attack, but I know that now I’m getting worse. I read about what biomeds do in the treatment of asthma: they slow the loss of function.

Today, all I want to do is tidy up the house in advance of Todd and Jessica’s visit on Saturday. And I may bake a cake for my neighbour Colleen who so kindly shoveled pathways through the snow for me this past Winter. I don’t feel inclined to do yard work.

Sharon Dawn: Thank you for your comment. You are very kind and encouraging. Best, best wishes, Chris.