I make plans/dates to do
things, I do them and they are not as satisfying as I had hoped they would be. And
I have been feeling “off” people (not friends), so I did some reading about social isolation.
Here is a summary of what I have read:
1.
It is fine to be socially
selective.
2.
It is understandable in in
people with a poor family background but it is not healthy as a response to
past bad experiences.
3.
A desire for isolation can
increase due to unsought isolation.
4.
Expressing a “dislike for
people” is often an attempt to feel better about feeling isolated.
5.
If long-time fulfilling
relationships start to feel less rewarding, one may be depressed.
Solitude comes in many forms. Someone who
spends the day alone is said to be solitary but if they are busy and listening
to media or interacting with others periodically on the phone or clerks in
stores, are they truly experiencing solitude?
At the other extreme are those who mediate.
Their objective is to “empty their mind.” They want to be free of “the inner
dialogue.” I figure I spend five-to-seven hours alone every day without any
conversation and almost constantly involved with the inner dialogue. I walk.
I walk conscious of my environment and love
that. Being hyper aware of nature is what gives me the feeling I so love of
being in church. But I also walk “blind;” I walk so involved with my thoughts
that I only “see” imagery linked to my thoughts—like my writing projects, my
past or my desires.
I have chosen not to undertake another project
so I have been focused on my desires. Hence the life reevaluation with which I
am currently engaged. And it’s okay; I am “living the moment” more successfully
than ever before—for that is all there is.
I
remember when I was a very little girl, our house caught on fire.
I'll
never forget the look on my father's face as he gathered me up
In
his arms and raced through the burning building out to the pavement.
I
stood there shivering in my pajamas and watched the whole world go up in
flames.
And
when it was all over I said to myself,
"Is
that all there is to a fire?"
Is
that all there is?
Is
that all there is?
If
that's all there is my friends
Then
let's keep dancing
Let's
break out the booze and have a ball
If
that's all there is
And
when I was 12 years old, my daddy took me to a circus.
"The
Greatest Show On Earth."
There
were clowns and elephants and dancing bears.
And
a beautiful lady in pink tights flew high above our heads.
And
as I sat there watching, I had the feeling that something was missing.
I
don't know what, but when it was over,
I
said to myself,
"Is
that all there is to a circus?"
Is
that all there is?
Is
that all there is?
If
that's all there is my friends
Then
let's keep dancing
Let's
break out the booze and have a ball
If
that's all there is
And
then I fell in love, with the most wonderful boy in the world.
We
would take long walks by the river
Or
just sit for hours gazing into each other's eyes.
We
were so very much in love.
Then
one day, he went away and I thought I'd die.
But
I didn't.
And
when I didn't I said to myself,
"Is
that all there is to love?"
Is
that all there is?
Is
that all there is?
If
that's all there is my friends, then let's keep-
I
know what you must be saying to yourselves.
"If
that's the way she feels about it why doesn't she just end it all?"
Oh,
no, not me.
I'm
in no hurry for that final disappointment.
'Cause
I know just as well as I'm standing here talking to you,
That
when that final moment comes and I'm breathing my last breath
I'll
be saying to myself-
Is
that all there is?
Is
that all there is?
If
that's all there is my friends
Then
let's keep dancing
Let's
break out the booze and have a ball
If
that's all there is
Writer(s): Mike Stoller, Jerry Leiber
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