Monday, April 18, 2016

Monday

Costin, my dear colleague in fish management, saw me for the first time today and was his usual exceptional self. We are ridding my tank of guppies; they are inbreeding.

I taxied home rather than walk through town—me, the walker. I put some  new Cardinal Tetras in my talk and then set off for Beth's … alone. What was I thinking?

Within three blocks I was walking with my ears plugged. The sound of my breathing was reassuring. I met Beth and promptly had not one, but two, anxiety attacks. One right after the other. But Beth, bless her, congratulated me on how I dealt with them and she took me by the arm and we walked that way until I felt stronger. Then we had a really lovely walk in the park.

I am really different. It is hard, at this point, to put it into words but its all about how I deal with both my own and other people's emotions. I can hardly wait to see Dr. Shoja tomorrow.

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