Well that went better than I thought. I did not use the microphone, I just persevered without it. It was hard going at first but there were long periods in the 3-hour class in which my voice was quite good. When the class was over, I was filled with a flush of awareness that I never have to teach that course again. So in spite of anticipating missing the pride of being an instructor at Emily Carr, it is clear to me that deep down inside, I am happy to be quitting teaching. I will not miss the anxiety.
I actually think my voice is going to recover. I have not had hope for a while but hope is back. If having a normal voice = 0 and the worst my voice has been = 10, then today feels like my voice is at a 3 or 4-level—the best is has been for a long, long time.