It’s snowing
like mad. It looks like Dr. Zhivago out there but it is supposed to turn to
rain later. I have a matinee of Cirque du
Soleil to go to today and if its still snowing, I will walk at least part
way I think.
Small dry
flakes have been falling through the night. I love being an early riser on
mornings like this; I feel as though the morning is mine alone. It’s not only
snowy, it’s extremely quiet and still because it is Sunday and at 5:00 am.
Yesterday
masterfully did nothing. I went outside once, to cross the street for bread,
otherwise I threw sixteen hours to the wind from a house full of materials
recently acquired for the purpose of play.
Sometimes we
need to take a break — especially when the only deadline is self-imposed. I’m
on a break from my ladies for the weekend.
•
I read that Short Term 12 was a good movie on
Netflix so in the evening I decided to watch it. Big — and I mean big — mistake. It’s about kids in a
residential program for troubled teens without families. It stars the brilliant
Brie Larson; she truly is amazing in this film as she was in Room.
As I was drawn
into the plot it never occurred to me that it might be problematical. I have
not seen or read anything like this since being diagnosed with PTSD. So when a
scene happened that seemed so mean to me, I lost control. It’s scary to lose
control.
It shook me to
the core and when I went to the window for fresh air its coldness felt as
alienating as the movie. The movie sucked all meaning out of me and I felt as
alone and purposeless as I have ever felt.
Life keeps
giving me things to talk to Dr. Shoja about.
•
From a great
obituary:
“He lived 1000 years in the 67 calendar
years we had with him because he attacked life; he grabbed it by the lapels,
kissed it, and swung it back onto the dance floor.”
“Throughout
his life, he was an accomplished hunter and birth control device tester (with
some failures, notably Caitlin Connors, 33; Chris Connors, 11; and Liam
Connors, 8).”
“Of
all the people he touched, both willing and unwilling, his proudest achievement
in life was marrying his wife Emily Ayer Connors….”
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