Monday, April 25, 2016

Officially a Bore

I'm not happy with the way things are going. It's starting to feel like my breakdown was actually an invasion of my body by some other personality. I've become someone I don't like and have no control over. I'm someone I wouldn't really want to be with, so I'm increasingly disinclined to get together with people.

Last night and this morning was as bad as life has ever felt. I will spare you the details. I got help. I am struggling to get to Wednesday when I see Dr. Shoja.

When I'm alone at home, I feel like who I used to be. But outside and in reaction to others, I become this raw, easily confused overly-self-aware bore.

Yesterday I visited the flowers in the Blodel Conservatory but they too many guests.

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