I'm not happy with the way things are going. It's starting to feel like my breakdown was actually an invasion of my body by some other personality. I've become someone I don't like and have no control over. I'm someone I wouldn't really want to be with, so I'm increasingly disinclined to get together with people.
Last night and this morning was as bad as life has ever felt. I will spare you the details. I got help. I am struggling to get to Wednesday when I see Dr. Shoja.
When I'm alone at home, I feel like who I used to be. But outside and in reaction to others, I become this raw, easily confused overly-self-aware bore.
Yesterday I visited the flowers in the Blodel Conservatory but they too many guests.