Recovered!

I shouldn’t have told her my idea or that I might take advantage of it. She’s a psychiatrist, after all. Dumb me.

I told her about an idea I’d had to offset overpopulation. I proposed Canada have a Go Out With A Bang policy.Canadians could apply and, if accepted, they’d get a million dollars and a year to spend it in —in Canada and it can’t be willed — after which they’d be euthanized. 

I told her I might take advantage of such a plan and I think that’s why she prescribed Mirtazapine. It’s an anti-depressant. People normally start on 15 milligrams per day; it’s prescribed up to 45 milligrams per day. I took 7 milligrams and it knocked me silly. I slept most all day except for my walk and then slept all night long. This is a guy who used to sleep only four hours a day.

So I’m not taking the drug any more. I thought it was an anti-anxiety medication.

I think talking to Dr. S. is all I need, just for a while and then I plan to try life on my own again. I don’t feel depressed and if I am I’m okay with it.

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All four of my beloved Edgeworthia died. I asked the nursery why they think it happened and they blamed the winter — and gave me four replacement plants. The new plants are Sweet Boxwood so my winters will smell very sweet. They bloom in January and are extremely fragrant.

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How quickly attitudes change: We may have rain Saturday and I’m thrilled. My rain collectors will collect some water for the garden and that day will be refreshing for everything growing.